Weber State University

After I returned from Connecticut, I moved back in with my parents, got my job back as a tow truck dispatcher registered at Weber State and got caught up with all of my friends.  Many of my friends were back from their mission.  

Within the first 2 weeks back, I went to visit John twice.  He had moved to Boise so the drive was a bit longer, but I didn't mind.  The first time I took Mindy with me, the next time I took Sandy (my nanny friend).  I was still head over heals for him.  

The 3rd time I went alone and decided to surprise him.  When I arrived, he was out on a date.  I felt like such an idiot.  Who was he out with?  When would he be home?  I hung out with his room mate Ryan until he got back.  Ryan told me that the girl he was with was John's girlfriend and that if I hid in the closet, they would come in, have sex and I could catch them in the act.  That didn't sound like a good idea to me.  I went into his bedroom and saw that my picture was face down on his nightstand, and there were condoms under his mattress, just like his friend told me.  When Ryan heard John's motorcycle, his ran upstairs and told him that I was there, so he took the girl home and then came back.  I had a lot of questions, so we sat down to talk.  He assured me that she was just a friend and that he loved me.  I wanted to believe him so badly.  I had arrived late at night, so I stayed there that night.  In the morning, he begged me not to go.  He said that he couldn't keep doing the long distance thing and wanted me to stay.  I told him I had to go.  When I got home, I called to let him know that I made it home safely and he told me to hang up the phone, forget about him and move on with my life.  He said that I had been disillusioned and that I deserved better than him.  I was so confused.  He had just begged me not to leave.  Two days later I called back and Ryan answered the phone.  He told me that John and Alexa had been together for a long time and that he should have told me sooner.  My heart broke into a thousand pieces.  I tried to sleep but couldn't stop crying.  My dad heard me and came into my room.  We talked for a bit and then he asked if he could offer a prayer for me.  He prayed and I was filled with peace and hope and finally able to sleep.  A few weeks later I found out the truth.  The day I left, Alexa came over to tell John that she was expecting his baby and they decided to get married.  It was really over with John.  I had no choice but to move on.  

A couple nights later, my friend Scott and I drove down to Moab and hung out for a couple days.  When I got back Mindy and I went dancing, we went dancing a lot.  There was a really cute kid there one time.  She said she would give me $100 if I went up to him and kissed him, so I did it.  I hung out with several other friends over the next days and weeks, they were doing their best to help take my mind off John.  

I was keeping very busy, which helped.  I was in school full-time and working full-time.  When summer quarter got out, Mindy and I went to San Francisco to hang out with Matt Busch.  We went to an A's game and ate a hot dog.  We visited FAO Schwarz and Ghirardelli, Fisherman's wharf and Pier 39.  We ran across the Golden Gate Bridge, went to Stinson Beach and Muir Woods.  We rode BART, went to Haight-Ashbury, and to a 49ers game at Candlestick Park.  It was a good time.  I was moving on, and I actually felt a lot of hope and relief.  

Muir Woods

Golden Gate Bridge

For fall and winter quarter, I decided to move to the dorms.  It was better for me to be closer to campus and have my freedom.  I met a lot of new people, went on lots of dates and made a bunch of new friends at Promontory Hall.  I became really good friends with a group of football players and we started hanging out all the time.  I started liking one of them and he like me back.  We dated for a bit while we were both preparing to serve a mission.  

That winter I quit my job and took a part-time job working for Delta Airlines reservations.  It was in the same building I lived in which was a huge plus.  Early 1996 I turned in my mission papers and got called to the Argentina, Rosario mission.  On my birthday that year, I received my endowment in the Bountiful temple.  That month I took a trip to California to go see grandma McNeill and go to Disneyland.  I also went to Phoenix to spend some time with Tara before I left.  I finished my winter quarter with a 3.8 G.P.A.

The day I went to the temple